they don't understand

I don't understand why I'm so afraid to lose the most important thing in my life. Makes a lot of sense, doesn't it? I find it so hard to keep my head up and it seems like every day, I just fall further and further into nothing. I've failed everyone around me. I've failed myself. What else is there possibly for me to do?

I don't have the strength to do this anymore. What's the point?