Bieber fever!!!!!!!!

Justin Bieber was in the cities yesterday and unfortunately I didn't get tickets to go see him. It would have made my life but oh well, I'll get over it eventually hahah. Anyway, my best friend won't be home until August soooooo I won't get to see Eclipse until then but I'm excited to see Taylor Lautner :) I haven't gone out much and I really want to go out but we'll see what happens, I might go out Friday night with Xai's sisters but we'll see. I don't have anything to wear yet.

I start work Friday as demo lady in the deli - sounds fun doesn't it? Oh well, at least I'm starting and it's something. I have been so tired lately but I took a thousand naps today so I shouldn't be. It sucks but whatever. I just want this weekend to hurry up and be done with. I need my parents back home, taking care of 4 kids can get overwhelming so I can understand why my mother goes crazy sometimes.

Well, I picked up a book at the library and it's great so far. I should probably keep on reading. I don't want to fall back and forget about it.

oh me. oh my.

Well tomorrow is the big day. I start my first day of training at Rainbow tomorrow. Oh yeah, I haven't blogged for awhile but I got an offer from Rainbow and Gap. Sadly, I turned Gap down since it was a little too far from home and I was just a temp for the meanwhile. Anyway, I'm kind of excited and meh at the same time. I will be working an 8-hour shift tomorrow and by the time I get off, Andy will be at work. Pffft, I haven't worked forever now so it will be strange and I will be lazy, yes but hopefully things will go by fast and easy!

Ugh, I didn't know looking for a place to live would be so much work! I have to take everything into consideration! Of course I'll need to find a place that I can afford. Okay, so here's what I'll need to add up in order to find a place to live:

rent (obviously) - $350 to $400 +

food, gas, shopping for the hell of it - $250+

bills - $100, give or take - i'll be switching over to VW, so hopefully that will go down!

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overall, that adds up to about 700$. I will probably make less than 500$ a month, I might take out extra on my loans to make ends meet. *sigh, so much money! :/ I guess I will have to sacrafice a little and not spend so much leisurely but fuuuuuuck :'''(

the hardest part

I think that I have trouble doing things for myself. Even though I can be selfish at times, I always feel bad when I don't do something for someone else. Everything I do for myself, I always have to balance it out by doing something for another person. I also have a hard time saying no. I am a huge pushover and especially if I care a lot about that person, I would do so much to make them happy and I would forget about myself. Over the years I have been trying to change that - to do more for me than others. I don't think it's changing much but I suppose it takes time. But then again, I have done this all my life and I don't think that I will be able to change it.

I'm always the nice girl that everyone can ask a favor from. Sometimes I just don't want to be that nice girl anymore but I can't help it because I love helping others and I especially love it when they are happy. I'm not going to say that I'm not happy because I am! I mean sure, things could be better but whatev, I am going to appreciate what I have now. I can't wish and hope that money will grow on trees and no one will starve and there will be world peace and no more wars and everyone will love each other no matter how they look, talk, or smell. I want ALL of that to be true but if I become another cold, heartless, selfish person = ALL of that will never happen. It will never be in the works of happening.

Why can't everything just be good? :/

late night drives

I don't know about you but I love driving late at night. I do get tired some times but on those nights when I'm wide awake and there is so much on my mind, I just like to go out and cruise down the street. I also love it when others are driving and I'm just sitting there staring off into the horizon. It's time like those when I feel so at rest and peaceful.

So, good news - the store manager at Rainbow had me go in to fill out a sheet for a background check and if it comes back positive then he is going to make me a job offer. Since I don't live the life of crimes, I might be a future employee of Rainbow Foods. Not exactly the dream job anyone would want but it's something for now and it is giving me some pocket money so I'm not complaining too much. Gap says they'll let us know by tomorrow night so we'll see how that goes.

Andy's mom, Kathy, is moving out friday so I will be heading to Stillwater for the day. I don't know what else I will be doing this weekend but probably not much. The 'rents are leaving for vaca tomorrow so I wish them a fun and safe trip to the west coast! I am super tired and I have a long day tomorrow so blog later :)

happy father's day!

* the kids w/ grandma

*the kids with dad

*the kids with mom

Today was a nice little day with the family. We went to Como Park to have a nice little picnic in celebration of father's day & Neda's early birthday. Afterwards we went over to Como Zoo and holy crap it was hot! I was sweating like a pig & my feet were killing me! I haven't walked that much for awhile now and it wasn't easy. I haven't been to the zoo forever now. Andy and I were supposed to go that one day but they had an event going on so it didn't happen but it looks so different. I don't remember it looking like that but it was nice just to visit everything again. I miss Andy!!!!! I should probably call him soon, huh? Oh well. I'll do that soon. I am so tired! I wish I can just sleep but that wouldn't be the smartest idea right now. Interview with Gap tomorrow! Hope that or Rainbow works out for me. My knee is killing me & I've got to do the dishes so TA-TA :)

whhhew.

I guess being persistent AND patient will pay off in the long run. I got a call from Gap today, I have an interview on Monday sooooooooo we'll see how that goes. Its another group interview but I guess they do that for 1 reason - to see who shines and who's willing to step their game up. I guess there are both advantages and disadvantages when answering the questions first & last. Anyway, I didn't do anything all day today! I feel like such a bum. I didn't get up til 1, then played solitaire on my IPod alllllllllll day. I went from a fully charged IPod and now its about dead. Oh well, I guess its better than being on facebook all day. I was supposed to go for a run today but Andy wouldn't let because it was dangerous and he's right. My mom & Neda walked so if I ran, I would have been way ahead of them and running alone at Phalen isn't exactly the smartest thing to do.

Big end of the week this week. Here's the run down of what's happening:

thursday - volunteer @ special olympics, help Kathy wrap dishes & clean house

friday - interview @ 2:30, Toy Story 3 w/ Andy

saturday & sunday - ?? I don't know yet right now. I want to go out but I think we might have a grad party for Padee

monday - interview @ 10

Well, I guess that isn't such a big weekend but whatever. There are more things happening this weekend than any other weekend that I've had so far hahah. I am currently obsessed with Eminem's love the way you lie and space bound. I don't usually listen to him but hey, I like it. His words are deep and scary but it's just sad, really.

Anywhooooooo, I need to shower. I have been so dang tired, I need to go to bed early tonight so I can get up way before 2. HAHAAA

from Andy

just having u in my life and both of us being happy and things are good is a gift enough for me!